Sa Friends...

Wala akong masabi…lamang naman yung ikinasisiya ko sa hindi…salamat sa inyo mga pare ko…

MG..mga tropa habang buhay..sobrang mahal ko kau..thanks for accepting and loving me (nga ba?..i hope so)lab yah…

BSE-CAE..sa mga classmates koh..though maraming “issues” and misunderstandings sa block natin hinding hindi ko kau ipagpapalit…lahat kau malapit sa PUSO ko…perhaps that’s the reason I will be a teacher..sabi nga nila teachers have a huge HEART..wahehehe..ahyun…all of you are my friends…and when I say a friend I mean it, with the most truthful sense of the word…

Zouzadge Generation…parang mga brothers and sisters koh…though hindi na tayo nagkakasama-sama remember that I’m here…ingat kau lagi…

Dianne…my bez…friend ko since childhood days…sobrang charming and lovable…sobrang namimis ko na…parang sister na turing koh..i hope we’ll see each other soon

TROKAL...wahehe..alam nyo na un…there’s no need for me to tell each of you how much you mean to me…I know madami na akong kasalanan sa inyo but u’re stil there for me..kaya sobrang love ko kau…FRIENDS FOREVER!…sorry talaga..bawi na lang ako…mwaaaaahhhhhhhh…

LuVLyF ?!?

"tanga ka talaga! as in to the highest level, d ka na ba magtatanda?", yan lagi ang naririnig ko dati sa mga kaibigan ko. that was during my first relationship. sabi nila, "you can't have both worlds" pero ba't ganun kahit isang world wala ako, malas na nga sa family, malas pa sa lovelife...nyeta...akala ko siya na ung sasalo sa akin....ung makakapitan ko...ang kaso siya pa ung mas nagpabagsak sa akin...tapos ahyun..nagpakabaliw ako sa kanya...nagpakamartir (to the max)...lahat ng gusto niya sinunod ko...naging girlfriend, friend, barkada, alalay, nanay all rolled into one...kaso hindi pa pala sapat un...niloko pa rin niya ako, pinagpalit sa iba. at sa tuwing hiwalayan, ikaw naman itong si tanga, kaunting hingi lang ng tawad at pagtulo ng luha lalambot agad ang puso..hindi mo mamamalayan kayo na naman pala..pero dumating sa puntong hindi mo na kaya..u gave up (actually, ilang beses na nga eh!) kaya lang ito yung pinakatotoo..ang tagal din bago ka nakarecover...bago ka nakangiti uli.(ung totoo)..ung tipong hindi ka na umiiyak ng biglaan, ung tipong walang dahilan..gone the days that you are crying in your class, jeepney, at the mall...IT TOOK ALMOST A YEAR TO GET OVER HIM...AND A LIFETIME TO FORGET HIM...i've moved on..at last..i think so..tapos u learned to like somebody new..but damn wala ka talaga yatang luck sa love, sa right man...lahat disappointment..kung hindi palyboy, may girlfriend, o di kaya naman may di magandang attitude, o kaya gusto ng friend mo or worst may mahal ng iba...paksyet na buhay yan..

"WALANG PAKIALAMANAN ! ! !"

the following paragraphs are for emo only...kung d ka madrama don't u dare try to read this...

sakit...ang sakit sakit talaga..nyeta...di ko na alam kung ano ang mas nakakasakit sa akin.. sa dami ng problema, ndi ko na alam kung saan dun ung mas ikinasasama talaga ng loob ko..waaaahhhhh...bahala nah...lahat na...

sa pamilya

ako..ako..ako...lagi na lang ako..parang commercial lang noh?!?..pero pwera biro totoo yan..ndi nman sa nagrereklamo ako (pero parang ganun narin cguro) sa tuwina, lagi na lang sumasama ang loob ko dahil sa kanila..kung hindi may namatay may mang-aaway, o di kaya naman ay may mag-aaway...nyeta..sama mo pa ang inggitan, tsismisan at sisihan...ang masama pa nito d lang ung nuclear family ko ang problema, pati ung extended...mas lamang pa nga kung minsan ung extended eh..saan ka maka2kita ng tiyahin na ang turing sau katulong...na para kang isang makinang walang kapaguran...bukal naman sa kalooban ko ang paggawa ng gawaing bahay kaya lang sana minsan maintindihan nilang d lahat kaya kong gawin ng sabay-sabay...nyeta..tao lang ako noh?!?..marunong mapagod..nanghihina din..kelangan ng sapat na pahinga at tulog...biruin mo natulog ka ng 1:00 am dahil sa mga assignments and projects mo tapos gigising ka ng 4:00 am para mag review..habang concentrated ka sa pagkakabisado and pagsusulat mo biglang kung saan ay may babanat ng..."ano yan???..ang tamad tamad nyo talagang magkapatid...ano tingin nyo d2 sa bahay, boarding house?..kung ganun magbayad kau...wala na nga kaung naitutulong sa gastusin ganyan pa kau..tumayo ka dyan at maghugas..nyeta...tanong mo kung anong oras na nun 5:15 ng umaga..d pa ko nakakaligo, halfway pa lang sa nirereview..nyeta tapos alas 7:00 klase ko, exam ko...nyeta ayoko nah....hehehe...ang saya ng buhay kong pang telenovela..wahehehe...kaya cguro galit ako sa sobrang dramang teleserye..pang lovers in paris lang ako although i also watch hiram <-- madrama yan pero ewan ko ba gs2 ko lang talaga sya..minsan...watevah...

3rd part of the EMO series

Isa akong dakilang "emo"...(gaya-gaya ba? ewan ko ba trip ko talaga syang gamitin at sabihin. It seems to fit perfectly with my feelings..)

Isa akong dakilang emo...sa isip sa salita, at sa gawa..wahehehe...parang panatang makabayan lang noh?..talaga nman...wala na cgurong taong tatalo sa sobrang ka-iyakin and ka-sensitive koh...ewan ko ba?..minsan nga ako na sumusuko sa sarili koh..ilang beses na akong nag-monologue at sinabi sa sarili kong tama nah......"TAMA NAH!"..ayoko na talaga..pero talagang matigas yata ang ulo ko..after a few minutes, hours, hay e2 na naman ako...well, that's me na talaga cguro...whether it will lead me to good or bad, i leave it to fate...holla!...

"The New ME"

days passed and so as my life. days went on, without me noticing it. maybe its because there's a lot of things that had been going on in my mind for the past few weeks; thoughts, happenings and experiences....all made me wiser and stronger....and told me that there's more to life.....that particular phrase really rings a bell now!....i don't want to regret yet i do. not because i have loved but because i gave it to a wrong person...anyway, past is past. just let it be a lesson. though until now i wonder why i became the person i was 5 months ago....anyway, let's just leave it there....u'll never understand me....all i can say now is ~life is wonderful!~.....let us not waste time...come and live life to the fullest....

me, myself, and I

Quotes makes me cry yet i don’t know why...perhaps it’s because I can relate to it or im just plain hopeless romantic. There is one particular quote that I love best. It goes like this:

Never say I love you ....If you really don't care.... Never talk about feelings.......If they aren't really there.....Never hold my hand.....If you are going to break my heart ..... Never say you are going to ....... If you don't plan to start .....Never look into my eyes ....... If all you do is lie ... Never say hello ...... If you really mean good bye...... If you really mean forever......Then say you will try......Never say forever .....Cause forever makes me cry........

All along I imagined love as a very special thing, something beautiful and wonderful. But it doesn’t seem to be like that. Hell, they're right...life isn't a bed of roses...love isn't all wonderful...Right now I see love only as hurt, pain and bitterness. However, let me clear things first. There are different types of love and it is classified accordingly. The one I’m talking about is the one going on between opposite sex; girlfriend-boyriend, husband-wife relationship.

I became different after my first relationship. (do i really have to tell this?...well...what the!...i don't care..i just feel like narrating my damn life...wahehehe)..back to the story...the relationship was really not good...no, NOT GOOD is an understatement...it was a disaster..it almost destroyed me..it's like a tornado creating havoc from within and leaving me helpless and wrecked. I even considered committing suicide because of the hurt i felt... (<-- so pathetic) Although I know its wrong I can’t help it. But I’m trying my best to overcome the feeling.

(~ Damn! i don't know what made me post this.. - again and in public...i made this months ago in a secret blog because i don't want any of i know or my friends to read this bullshit (sorry for the word..i got carried away)
Though i still remember the pain and the hurt, the feeling is not there anymore...perhaps i'm reminiscing because i'm sad right now..hell, whatever!...i really don't know the reason why i'm dong this, if ever there is any...
Life is like that anyway...there's nothing you can do but go with the flow, be strong and accept ur fate..though i'm not saying that u'll conform..u can stil be urself, choose ur own phase, decide for your life. But there are some things not within one's power. Those tragic situations that u'll encounter, that most of the time we'll make u feel impotent...that will render you useless...
Anyway, enough of being melancholic. I'm still alive as well as my loved ones. Therefore, the show must go on. I must get up and fight if not for myself but for them. So...AJA!..hehehe...fight, fight, fight!.....~)